Why it doesn't get to me

I work at this small Mexican restaurant, essentially the only sit-down restaurant in my small town. Most of the cooks are spanish speaking and are all very nice and Ilike them very much. After 4 years of working at the same job with the same people, you kind of get to know one another. They know I have a child, and am not with his father. Every other day, one of my favorite spanish speaking friend/cook will ask me, "Boyfriend yet?" and I always smile and say no, not yet. To which he replies with a semi-sad face, a shake of his head, and a tiny sigh. I sense that he is secretly hoping for me to find a man, and also secretly feels sorry that I haven't one yet. Well may be not so secretly. Ha. But here's why not having a man doesn't bother me.

I'm not in the mood to settle. I could easily have a boyfriend. Wait. that sounded a little conceited. Which I'm the opposite of. However, there has been a guy or two who wanted to seriously commit to me. But although their attempts to win my heart were very flattering and aided in building back my self confidence, I didn't have that "feeling".

I see couples all the time that are unhappily together. I have friends who's significant other's treat them disrespectfully. Boyfriends who are controlling. Husbands that leave the mother of their child alone on the first Mother's Day. Those are things I so do not desire. Because if I was in a relationship like that, I would be far less happy than I am now.

So although I hate to disappoint my sweet Mexican friend with the disappointing news that I don't, and won't, have a boyfriend, I'm glad I don't. I'm perfectly content with waiting patiently for my perfect man who will come sweep me off my feet when the time is just right.

I am not in the mood for an okay relationship. I don't want a boyfriend so I can simply void the loneliness I feel as I crawl into my queen size bed at night. I'm waiting for the right relationship with the right guy. One day I can look at him and say with a heart full of honesty; all the nights I slept alone, all the dinners I cooked for only myself, all the movies I watched without a hand to

hold, they all made me appreciate the wonderfulness of you being mine that much more.

And if I don't find someone, I'm content with that also. Because, more than anything, I'd rather be happily single than settle for a boy who doesn't make my heart beat with passion, love, joy, inspiration, support and laughter.

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Things worth having are worth waiting for.

For you, my future great love,

I'll gladly wait patiently.